For the past three nights, I have sat and attempted to write this editorial. Usually, it’s an easy task. I think of something I felt that week or a question that popped into my head. This week it felt like I felt nothing. Not in a bad sense. I wouldn’t describe it as being depressed, defeated, or anything of that sort. My brain was and has been off for days it feels.

Is it a mix of senioritis? Tech week? My senior show? Graduation? Maybe a mix of all that. My impending doom (being old and a college grad), the looming immense stress of having a senior exhibition, and nights devoted to tech week do make me feel a little crazy. 

Right now I feel like not writing. I’ve written so much this semester part of me feels as if I’m running out of words. I don’t really want to do assignments. It somewhat feels like I wake up, exist, and go to bed, but I feel fulfilled at the same time. It’s like a constant sigh.  

I had senioritis when I was graduating high school, but this is a different feeling. That senior year was one through Covid and was a surreal experience. I felt very out of control of my own life, set on autopilot, and very depressed. I feel in control of life right now; days feel different, and I’m not depressed. Am I tired of doing school work? Absolutely. Am I ready to graduate? God yes. Despite feeling content and grounded, I still feel like I’m nowhere.

Senioritis will likely affect some of you reading this, or it already has. So, how do you cope with this overwhelming feeling? 

The easiest piece of advice is to just do the things you love, or what you want to do. Hang out with friends before you all go your separate ways, stay up late doing nothing and everything, listen to new music. In less than two months I will be done with school (for a decent bit) being with others helps me to not feel nowhere. 

I’ve also realized that it is okay (sometimes) to do nothing (if you can afford to do so)! While it’s important to stay on top of your work, spend time time with people, go to that restaurant you’ve always wanted to go to, live your life. It’s easy to fall into stress and the looming stress of your impending doom (graduating and being an adult), live your last little bit of college however you want to. 

Don’t be a nowhere man.